Thursday, April 28, 2016

New Office on Monday

Monday I am moving permanently to our other office at work.  The second location is smaller and less busy, but is in an area that supports a wealthier demographic, so it is our swanky office.  I have only visited the office once for a meeting and the feel is very different than the crazy busy office where I have been working.  

I am both looking forward and dreading the move.  I am definitely not looking forward to the longer commute, but there will be less stress at the office that will be my new home.  I will have to determine if that is good or bad.  I like to be busy all day since it makes the day go so fast, so I don't know if I will like the slower pace office.  On the other hand, it will be nice to take the time to actually make sure everything is done 100% correct rather rushing through things because you have a line of people that need to be taken care of while the phones are ringing off the hook.  

I think that the slower office will really take my training to the next level.  The staff that is at my new location are knowledgeable so I will probably drive them crazy picking their brains for all the stuff that I haven't learned yet.   Because the office I was training in was short staffed, I definitely had a hands on training and often we were so busy that someone else would take over or I would just get a quick explanation on how something was supposed to be done.  At the new office, I think my training will definitely push me to the next level and I will hope to be an expert in another couple of months. 

In the busy office, I have met and like everybody, but with how busy we are, you don't really get to know anyone.  At the slower office, people tend to get to know each other better and I hear even the doctors are more relaxed at the slower office.  With my busy life, I like the idea of having friends at work, so I think I may enjoy the new office for this reason.  

The other good thing about my new position is that because it is a smaller office, there is less office politics.  Sometimes the finger pointing and the the competition at the bigger office gets in the way and creates a not so great atmosphere.  I am looking forward to be out of that environment.  

Of course, moving to the other office permanently does not mean I will never work at the busy office again.  All the front desk staff and techs for that matter, work rotating shifts at both offices.  So, I expect to work at the busy office at least once every other week if not more.  Also my rotating Saturday shift will also be at the busier office.  The good news about this too is that I have already met quite a few people from the smaller office because I have worked with them either on a Saturday or on a rotating weekday.  

The good news is that I found out I will be moving permanently to the smaller office before my lease is up this year, so now I can consider moving closer to my new workplace.  The options for that could be interesting.  Let's see what unfolds....

Sunday, April 24, 2016

No More Martyrdom

I have been in my current relationship for a little more than 6 months now.  I must say that I am very happy, however, I am finding that I am doing too much.  This is of course is no fault of my boyfriend's but of my own.  I have a history of sacrificing too much of myself to please other people.  I get to a point where I am no longer living for myself but for the other person.  This only creates resentment for everyone.  I feel like I am taken advantage of and then take it out on the other person which is totally unfair.

In this relationship I am trying to prevent myself from getting to this point.  I love doing everything for my boyfriend, but I rebel every so often and then he thinks I am crazy.  I have yet to find a middle ground on how to deal with this.  I really wish I knew how to live for me.  I am working on this and have asked God to show me how.  I was raised to serve others and to not think of myself, so I find it hard to put myself first.  When I do put myself first I have guilt and shame, so it is a constant struggle for me.

I am envious of women who can put themselves first and enjoy life to the fullest.  I must say that I am a happy person, but I find it hard to maintain when I am worried about whether I am pleasing someone else all the time.  My boyfriend is very appreciative of everything that I do for him and he is more giving and understanding than any guy I have ever dated.  I am so lucky to have him.  I am thankful for every day we have together.

Friday, April 22, 2016

My Tribute to Prince

I was devastated yesterday when I found out Prince had died.  He is an icon and such a talented individual who pushed through boundaries and showed the world how much of a difference one person could make.  

I have the same birthday as Prince, June 7th.  For this reason, I have always looked for similarities between us and I would like to think that I found many. I would like to think that I am creative, outgoing, a little outlandish, definitely quirky and eccentric and possibly bigger than just my name can convey.  And of course Prince was all those things and more.  I felt almost like I had some kind of kinship with him so his passing really touched me. 

I was a teen in the 80's so Prince was a huge part of my growing up.  His song Nikki was definitely the 16 year old equivalent of the 12 year old reading the graphic Judy Bloom books!  It was a taboo subject in mainstream society that we were all into but tried to keep hush hush from the parents!  Prince led a movement that allowed for individualism and creativity beyond anything that existed previously.  I think that mainstream society really does not even know the extent of his talent.  Prince not only recorded his own music, but he wrote hit after hit for other artists as well.  The tome of music that he created is vast and far reaching. It is amazing to even think that one person could create so much.  

Of course beyond that, Prince was leading a movement in individualism which allowed self expression and sensuality.  I do believe that even though Prince was never known as a homosexual, he opened many doors for those who are.  He blurred the lines of what it means to be a man or a woman and taught us that we can be both masculine and feminine and still be respected and loved.  

Prince will be greatly missed.  I suspect that we are yet to find out really how far his influence was since he did not brag about how he helped others.  I am sure people that he has helped and influenced with come out of the woodwork and we will realize that Prince really was bigger than his name.  

Rest in peace, Prince, you are in good company with Bowie this year.  

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Hunter was the Best Dog Ever

My dog Hunter, will be crossing the rainbow bridge this morning. I got Hunter in February of 2002, a mere month after our previous dog, Jordan, got hit by a car.  Hunter was about 6 months old when we got him and my kids were 5 & 3 at the time.  I received him from a shelter called "A New Leash on Life".  He was a rescue dog.  As a pup, he was found living in a gopher tortoise hole with a sibling.  He was rescued and adopted out to a young person for a few months.  He was returned back to the rescue group when his original parent couldn't have him in an apartment where they were living.  

When I got Hunter, his name was Eliot.  The kids and I picked out his new name and he took to it right away.  The rescue group and my veterinarian thought he was a sheltie mix and were surprised that he got as big as a border collie.  We never did find out his true linage, but suspect he was border collie/sheltie.  From the picture you could see that he had a ton of hair, but his bone structure was rather small.  At his highest weight, he was only 50 pounds.  

About a month after I got Hunter was when my ex-husband and I split up  Hunter was there for me and the kids through that whole ordeal.  When I started seeing someone new, John, he and Hunter became close.   If you have been following me, you know that I split with my ex-boyfriend, John, in August of 2014.  My ex had a nice house and I was moving to a cramped apartment, so I left my geriatric dog, Hunter, with John.  Since that time, I have visited Hunter as much as I can.  It broke my heart to leave him, but I made the sacrifice because staying with my ex was the best thing for Hunter. 

I received a text from John yesterday to inform me that he made the decision to put Hunter down today. It was long overdue.  Because I was visiting him, I could see the deterioration better than my ex who was seeing him every single day.  It was only now that Hunter cannot get up on his own or stand very well, that my ex came to the conclusion that it is time.  

My ex made an appointment to have it done this morning and is going with his ex-wife.  I really cannot believe that I cannot be with my dog in his final moments, so I said goodbye to him yesterday.  Just another reason to confirm why John is an "ex".  

Hunter really was the best dog ever.  He was loving. gentle, polite and well mannered.  I really should have had him be a therapy dog, but I never went through the classes.  It wasn't until he got old that he started not to listen as much and couldn't handle change.  

I remember when my daughter was young and she would put tutus and tiaras on Hunter.  He was so patient and sweet to her.  He always liked everybody and he got a lot of attention because of how beautiful he was. In the springtime, I would brush him and let his fur fly into the yard where the doves would collect it for their nests.  He loved the squirrels in John's back yard and would protect them from the local cats.  I guess because he was a herding breed, he adopted the squirrels as his charge and they would all come down out of the trees and feed when Hunter was in the yard because they knew they were safe.  

He did chase cats and larger animals like armadillos.  I remember once when wild peacocks came into our yard and that really freaked Hunter out.  He did chase them and I suspect that was because they are so big since he had never chased smaller birds.  After that I always tried to keep him in the house if the peacocks or wild turkeys were around.  

As Hunter crosses over the rainbow bridge this morning, I am sure he knows that he is loved.  He will get to meet my previous dog, Jordan, and someday I will see them again. 

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Weekday Off

I have today off since I have to work on Saturday.  Now that I am fully trained at work, they have started scheduling me on Saturdays.  I have to work about every other Saturday.  I don't like only having one day at a time off, but since today is a weekday and my daughter is at school and my boyfriend is working, I am getting a lot done.  I have been up since before 6 am and have been working on stuff at home all morning.  It is amazing what you can get done when no one else is around.  

I really hate spending my day off doing laundry, cleaning, doing paperwork and paying bills, but it has to be done.  I am already on my 3rd load of laundry this morning.  I am trying to motivate myself to wash my car and maybe drive Uber this afternoon.  I could really use the extra money to pay down some bills.  I also have some things in the works that I will need some capital for, so I am trying to save for that as well.  I will update you guys on that when I have some concrete plans.  

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Boards on a Boardwalk

I went for a walk today at Turkey Creek Sanctuary.  I have not been there in a very long time and miss it dearly.  It is a nature park in the middle of the city of Palm Bay.  There are trails and a boardwalk that you can walk through.  It is magnificent.   A place to convene with nature that is right under our nose.   I took lots of pics and will uploading them into another post later.  

As I was walking, contemplating life, and enjoying nature, I looked down and noticed a memorialized board that spoke volumes to me.  On the boardwalk, people can donate money and have sayings or names, or whatever etched on the boards for all to see.  The above pic is of some of those boards.  The particular board I ran across was a board that had a man and a woman's name and stated that they will love each other forever.  It is very touching, until you realize that this couple (I am friends with the woman) went through a horrific divorce about 4 years ago.  Yet the declaration on the boardwalk still remains.  I wonder if my friend realizes that the board is still there.  And if she does, I wonder if it prevents her from going to the sanctuary and I wonder how many people tell her when they stumble across it.  

It makes you realize how fragile relationships really are.  I know that my friend thought she and her husband were just going through a rough patch and he left her abruptly for another woman.  My friend was devastated.  Yet, in this park there is a reminder of happier times, or at least the illusion of happier times.  It seems surreal.  A constant reminder of loss is on the boardwalk until that particular board disintegrates to a point that it will need to be replaced.  I wonder how many other boards have similar stories.  

As I was trying to sort out my own life, I was thinking about all these people that put their relationships out there for the world to see and wonder how many are still together.  With divorce rates what they are, probably not many are still together.  So, not only was I walking over memorial boards, but also boards that memorialized relationships that no longer exist.  I guess in a world where so many things are throw away and not permanent, I guess boards on a boardwalk are about as permanent as you get....  

Thursday, April 7, 2016

I Have that Face

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I have learned over the years that I have a familiar face.  There are other women out there that look just like me.  I get mistaken for someone else all the time.  In fact, I have had people that I have met argue with me that I am someone else.  Seriously?  I know who I am and who I have always been, and you are going to convince me otherwise?  What kind of insanity is that?  

I was working with a patient the other day at work and she made a comment that I had been working there a long time.  I advised her that I have only been at this job for a little over a month.  She swore that I have been there for years.  Really, why would I lie about that?  

When I started dating my boyfriend, one of his good friends thought I was someone else with quite a bad reputation.  When I met her, she acted like she knew me even though it was the first time I had ever spoken to her.  She asked me where I hung out and I told her and she didn't believe me and swore that I was the other person.  My boyfriend got paranoid and even took me to the establishment where my doppelganger hangs out to see if anyone there knew me.  Of course, no one did, so he finally had resolution with no more doubts.  

I always wonder if I have seen these women that supposedly look like me and never recognized them. Would I even recognize someone who looks like me?  It's not like I look in a mirror all day, so other people see me more than I see myself, so I wonder if I would recognize myself.  That is indeed a strange thought.  Maybe we run into each other and don't recognize someone who looks similar to ourselves.  It is all very bizarre.  

Do you have a doppelganger or two?  I must have several or the one or two I have must really get around a lot.  I just hope they never commit any crimes and I get pulled into a lineup because I look like them.  If people I converse with cannot tell the difference, how would an eyewitness know the difference.  That is a scary thought.  

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Uber After Dark - Spring Break

Uber seems to be a little slower since we are out of the the Spring Break season.  I didn't expect to be busy during spring break since Melbourne is not really a spring break destination.  But, there were nights when most of my pickups were spring breakers.  Most of these spring breakers either had parents that they were visiting here and they brought friends with them.  Or the local college kids (we have Florida Tech here) were hosting spring breakers from other schools.

I had a lot of pickups and drop offs at local college parties.  There were also quite a few college kids that were in the downtown bar area where I do most of my Ubering (is that a word? lol).  No surprises there.  

What did surprise me was that most of the college kids are more polite than the general population.  I get a lot more "yes ma'am's" than I normally do.  I found this really odd considering that the spring break crowd were considerably more drunk than my other pickups.  Only with the spring break crowd have I seen drunks picked up from a horizontal position to be put in my car by their caring friends.  There was a lot of helping others walk, and general drunkenness.  

One good thing about driving Uber is that when you deal with these drunken groups, there is always at least one caregiver in the group that is looking out for everyone else.  This is a given considering the fact that someone had to have the foresight and responsibility to even arrange for an Uber pickup.  I am not sure how the groups that did not have a responsible person with them got home, but I do know that there are a lot of responsible college kids that utilize Uber and look out for their friends too!  

I had a pickup last night from a college girl and she was telling me how she loves Uber.  She does not use it all the much herself because she plays college sports, but she loves it for her friends.  It was obvious that she is the caregiver of all her friends.  She said before Uber came to Melbourne she was constantly getting phone calls in the middle of the night from drunken friends that needed a ride home.  She said that now all her friends use Uber and she is relieved that she no longer has the duty to be the designated driver for everyone.  

It is stories like these that make me glad I am an Uber driver.  I do like making the money, but mostly, I like the feeling that Uber is a service to the community.  We are keeping drunk drivers off the road.  

And to all you Spring Breaker's:   thanks for using Uber and be especially kind to that caregiver in your group.  I have seen what they have to put up with, and they deserve some kudos!  

Saturday, April 2, 2016

My Honey Bought a Truck

My honey bought a truck.  It is a 2000 Ford Ranger, so it is an old truck, but it is in good shape and reliable.  He got a good deal on it because he bought it from the company he works for.  The only problem is that now we have to get all the company logos off of it and it will probably need a new paint job too.  

I am happy because my boyfriend only had a work truck before so he could not use it for personal use.  So, for everything outside of work, he was borrowing my car.  I don't mind sharing, but there were times when I wanted to drive for Uber but I didn't want to leave him without transportation.  Now, I can pretty much work Uber whenever I want, which is a good thing.  

Of course there are all the benefits of having a truck too.  If/when I ever get into a house again, a truck will be very useful